erin alison

i can see a beautiful sky in the horizon.
warmth all around; petals falling.
this is what infinity must feel like.
this is how i've always dreamed it would be.

"If I find in myself desires which nothing in this world can satisfy, the only logical explanation is that I was made for another world." - C.S. Lewis

There's not enough soil in the earth for how deep I want to be buried.
There's not enough water in the oceans for how slowly I want to sink.
There's not enough fire in the sun for how brightly I want to burn.
There aren't enough words in my head to say all the things I can't.
There's not enough blood in my body for all I need to bleed.
There's aren't enough couches in the world for how long I want to sleep.
There's not enough life in me, for all I want to live.
All I've had enough of, is you.

sedated.

i'm obsessed.
http://imgfave.com/erinadore

sometimes i feel so fragile.
like one whisper could make me fall apart.

Love shaped glasses. Goggles. Masking every imperfection; turning all of those wrinkles into freckles. Being tricked into loving someone else under false pretenses hurts. Sometimes when I look at him my heart drops and I feel motionless. Torn and conflicted and scared to death to find an answer. We all know happiness is key. Happiness is what I've always sought after. What I desire. What I crave.


My eager mind won't stop wandering.
Wanderlust.

you in the dark
you in the pain
you on the run
living a hell
living your ghost
living your end
never seem to get in the place that i belong
don't wanna lose the time, lose the time to come

whatever you say, it's alright
whatever you do, it's all good
whatever you say, it's alright

silence is not the way
we need to talk about it
Ii heaven is on the way
if heaven is on the way

you in the sea
on a decline
breaking the waves
watching the lights go down
letting the cables sleep

whatever you say, it's alright
whatever you do, it's all good
whatever you say, it's alright

silence is not the way
we need to talk about it
if heaven is on the way
we'll wrap the world around it
if heaven is on the way
if heaven is on the way

i'm a stranger in this town
i'm a stranger in this town
i'm a stranger in this town

if heaven is on the way
if heaven is on the way

i'm a stranger in this town
i'm a stranger in this town

bush - letting the cables sleep

my 22nd consisted of: wearing an old man's cowboy hat, fire water shots & whiskey sours, delux grilled cheese, and spooning. success.

love changes me
into someone
i don't recognize in the mirror

love turns us into monsters
clawing and eating away rationality
whispering i love you between the sheets
constant

my mind rules over my heart
beating beating beating
it haunts me

she loves you.
you love me.

awkward.

There is a tension when I am away from you that I can't explain. I feel uncomplete, and a little heartbroken. Every time we part I am left unequal. Your scent paralyzes me. You put your hands all over my body, even when I'm laughing and begging you to stop. I am scared shitless. I am open and vulnerable; something I'm not accustomed to. Sometimes when you look into my eyes I have to look away - I'm overwhelmed. You make me anxious. You make me stupid happy. And for all of this I thank you. For allowing me to feel this way. For holding my hand. For loving me.

i want him to feel what i feel.

my heels are raw.
my stomach knotted.
and i am completely unfulfilled.

moody, moody.

Recently watched:
Prophecy
Wishmaster & Wishmaster 2
Let Sleeping Bodies Lie
Magic
The Wrestler
Junior
Big
Twins
Marytrs
Teeth
Capote
Street Trash

Currently listening:
Metric
Camera Obscura
Bat For Lashes
Smashing Pumpkins (love revisited)

Small things that bring happiness:
Sidewalk chalk
Hand holding
Flowers
Thunderstorms

Life is beautiful lately.
Happiness has flooded over me, washing me clean.
I feel refreshed.
I feel alive.